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History Refracted explores my complicated relationship with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder and Traumatic Brain Injury and its effect on my memory of my time deployed to the Helmand Province, Afghanistan. Seemingly innocuous, everyday sightings refract and flash memories of past experiences and my captured frames while deployed. These events were simultaneously experienced with my physical presence and second-hand as I viewed and captured everything unfolding with my camera. As memories live almost in the abstract in the brain, I created concrete moments in time that I can reengage. A tertiary viewing comes with that re-engagement as I confront these memories through repeated use of the imagery. This is both blessing and curse as my fragmented memory attempts to put together memories of my time deployed. Memory works in three stages; receiving, storing, and retrieving. Retrieval due to the trauma and the repression of memories combined provides a constant battle in my daily life. Photographs I've taken serve as a catalyst for remembrance regarding my experiences lost to my trauma, whether good or bad. The struggle with memory recollection due to a traumatic brain injury through blast exposure and concurrent issues with Post Traumatic Stress feels inescapable. Within this context, there exists a level of purposeful exploration of memories mixed with the inability and, at times, unwillingness to recall them. In the world, however, as everyday life unfolds, I find myself shocked back in an almost "eureka!" moment, and the spark of memory flashes back from some hidden depths in my mind to the forefront in an electric fashion. 

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